So tired..

I am so freaking tired today. I did not want to get up this morning. It was raining and I could tell from my bedroom window it was cold. BUT…I got up and I went to aerobics this morning. He kicked our butt today. I love my aerobics class and the gym. The people there are really nice. Tomorrow is weigh in at ww. I told myself last week that I would not be upset as long as I lost 1 pound/week. The wedding is in about 65 weeks, so if I lose 1lb/week that would be just about right. I am so ready to start to see the changes in my body. I can tell already in my face. I always lose weight there first…and my boobs..WTH? Why does that happen? I barely have anything up there now as it is..Yeah, I weigh over 200 lbs and I’m all belly. My legs are thin, my arms could use some toning but overall ok, but my stomach. ICK…it’s like it’s from another planet. AND I have about 20 chins. I really am so glad that I am so motivated today. I just found the best thing to eat, too.
1 cup strawberries and 2 TB of cool whip is only 2 points…and it was worth every point.
The fiance cooked boiled shrimp last night. Boiled shrimp are so low in points that when I am eating them I feel like I am cheating because they are so damn good.
I am so tired today. I guess it’s because I woke up at 4:45 this morning. I have a meeting tonight and I would rather eat this keyboard than go. I had a meeting last night and another one tomorrow night. They all are about volunteer work. I promise as soon as this year is over..next year, I will not volunteer at all. I am so stressed and the job that pays me isn’t stressing me out.
I’m about to lay my head on my desk and pretend that I am on a cruise ship. Speaking of…I use to make fun of people that went on cruises because I thought it was a commercial lame excuse for a vacation. I was wrong. I will cruise each and every year until the day I die.

And we’re off…

Well, today I am starting an eating blog. My name will not be given out and the email address I used thinks my first and last name are Never Full. So, here we go. Ever since I have been a little girl, I have been overweight.  I have always loved food. I love all types of food.  I love healthy food.  I love unhealthy food.  I love food that doesn’t look good. I love pretty food. I love salty food. I love sweet food. I love sour food. I love food, get it?

Well, I am engaged now. The man that loves me loves me for who I am and nothing less or nothing more. He could care less if I weighed 400 lbs or 100 lbs.  He just loves me. AND as satisfying and wonderful as that is…it can be a real pain in the ass. I just wish he would look at me and say, “Never Full, I really think you could lose about 71 pounds and you would be even prettier than you are now.” BUT NO…He just asks me if I want seconds. Of course I want seconds…you don’t get to be 228 lbs and not eat seconds. Unless you have some metabolism issues. I don’t have any metabolism issues. I have prayed for thyroid problems, huge tumors in my belly or any other condition that I could blame my weight on besides myself. No, I am just FAT. Here is the big kicker, I am fat…and I’m conceited. I know I look good. I am beautiful. I am not shitting you…I’m really good looking. I have one of the most beautiful faces you have ever seen. I could be a plus size model. Really…(See how conceited I am?)  Anyway, I just look in the mirror and see how beautiful I could be if I lost 71 lbs. I don’t want to be really skinny. I just want to weigh 157 lbs. I know, an odd number. I pulled it out of my ass. I think it rolls off the tongue good. 157 157 157 Say it with me…157 157 157. Ingenious…I know.

So, this is Never Full’s journey to lose 71 pounds. Once I lose the weight this blog will self destruct. There is no going back. There is no turning around. There is no stopping or yielding or turning away.
Here is my plan of attack. I am cutting calories and working out. If you came here to get the “weight loss quick tip” it ain’t here. It will be done with hard work and that’s it. I have tried everything…below is the list…

1. Weight Watchers – Love weight watchers. I am actually doing it now. It is NOT quick but everytime I lose weight on WW I never gain it back. It’s slower than molasses, but I can eat a cheeseburger if I want.

2. Atkins – The diet of the devil. I’m pretty sure this is Lucifer’s way of screwing with us. You eat terrible things. Pork skins? Meat? Pork Skins? Meat? Pork Skins? Meat? Eggs? Pork Skins? Meat? No thanks. I want pasta from time to time. I want rice everyday. I want baked potatoes and bread. Glorious bread.

3. Diet Pills – I have tried everything from Adipex to Phen Phen. From Trimspa to Dexadrin. From uppers with no name to uppers that have names I can’t spell. They kick ass for house cleaning but turn me into someone that I don’t even want to be around much less be.

4. Fasting – Yeah, that was fun. I ate gum for 3 days and thought (until I passed out) that this was my answer. Not so much.

I have a friend of has a friend that says she doesn’t eat. She just drinks water and smokes cigs. I love this child AND that is all she does. And she is skinny…Real skinny…I can’t do that. I have to eat. I am just going to learn to eat the things I should and not eat the things I shouldn’t. So, here I go.
I am not doing this blog for people to read. It’s more of a journal for me. Each Thursday, I am going to jot down my weight. I am not going to give out any advice when it comes to WW. If you want that…go to www.weightwatchers.com 

 

Today’s weight – 219 (I have lost 9 lbs since I started. Today is day 8)

I’m excited!